I ate so much today.
I want to explode.
I think it's because I had a fight with my love.
I feel like a giant cow.
I am going crazy.
My love says he can't handle an eating disorder.
I say I don't have one.
He asks what I ate yesterday.
I tell him.
He gets mad.
Starting tomorrow I am going on a fast.
Only 100% juice.
And water.
And lettuce.
Nothing else.
I am going to have a hard time with this.
My love already told me I was not allowed to do it.
But I am going to do it anyway.
If I don't get the fat out of my body I am going to kill myself.
I can't handle it anymore.
I am starting my fast tomorrow.
I'm going for five days to start.
Then I will see how much I weigh.
Then I will do another fast for ten days.
After that I will not take in more than 500 cal a day.
1 comment:
It's so hard when someone you love tries to get you to eat. Try to explain to him that you feel much better if you don't eat. Just try to have a full explanation (as much as you can) ready for him to answer his questions. It might help for him to understand it more... i hope it works, dearie.
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